Do you ever wished you blogged 100% anonymously??
no? I'm the only one??
Sometimes I need an outlet just to vent.
I don't feel like I can really let loose because EVERYONE I know reads my little blog. Trust me - I LOVE keeping friends and family in the loop
and I love that I have met so many wonderful people in blog-land.
I have to keep telling myself that if I would have blogged anonymously, I wouldn't have created relationships with some of you wonderfuls! That would truly be a travesty! I can't help but WANT to have somewhere to have some sort of anonymity BUT then I wouldn't have anyone to share it with; I wouldn't have comments or 'fans' or people to give me a different perspective. I would just be venting into nothingness - which is helpful if you just need to scream.
But sometimes people are mean/rude/spiteful and I want to talk about it.
I'm really sensitive about people - when I react to something, it is usually me thinking about whether it could be offensive or hurt someone in the group I am with. my feelings don't necessarily get hurt easily - unless we are close friends or you are family. I completely let my guard down around friends and family...mostly.
Over the past couple weeks there have been people in my life who have hurt me.
Nothing MAJOR - but things were said or done and it didn't really fly with me.
Something about this girl here is that I didn't always have friends - for real.
if you have been around these parts for any length of time, you know I'm SUPER close with my family. So I take any and all friendships to heart.
BECAUSE of this, I don't always say when something has hurt me.
It is just so much easier to avoid that sort of conflict ....
that AND most of the people in my life are 'new' to it...
as in the last 2-7 years. Sometimes I'm not sure how they will react to my blunt honesty. The Husband and I don't have this issue -so don't worry about my happy little marriage =)
Anyhow - I'm rambling but I think these are the reasons that this place, this blog, hasn't been filled with all sorts of randoms and ramblings and stories - I guess I am struggling internally with other things that I feel are probably inconsequential; they just rubbed me the wrong way.
In light of this epiphany - I started making a list.
I've deemed it:
SUNSHINE for the SOUL
when I made it this morning, it was a terrible poem haha!
it has since been shortened to a list of happies
Saying a prayer and instantly feeling better
Going for a Run
Loving my Life
Pretty high heels
Cupcakes and Frosting
My Husbands Eyes and Smile
The Sun in the Sky
My wedding rings and what they Represent
The color Pink
Romantic movies with Happily Ever Afters
Wearing Sunnies (sunglasses)
Sitting in the same side of the Booth
Cuddling on the Couch
Salty air in my hair and off shore fishing
My family and friends from all mediums in my life
The way my Husband loves Me
Meeting new people
The Husband texting me "haters gonna hate"
seriously - it rhymed at one point and it was seriously TERRIBLE...like I laughed while I rhymed it! but hey I'm a crafter NOT a writer! I had to stop because I was crying from laughing!
So what is your sunshine for YOUR soul?