OK so I realized that my post this morning was pretty silly and seemed full of happiness and giggles. Yeah that isn't what is going on with me. I'm trying REALLY hard but I am unhappy with myself.
The truth is I have pretty much quit working out -- I have been running twice in the past month and I haven't done any kind of weight/cross-training at all. I notice a change in my mood and the way I feel about most things. I am mad at myself for not making more time to take care of me.
I called J on the way to work and told him he needs to help motivate me because I can't seem to find it on my own. Even the idea of running a half marathon in December is not motivation enough for me to get back at it.
I had a pep talk with myself this morning, I said "Self! get it together!" I am going to take pictures of myself when I get home and use them as motivation to get off my butt. I thought having a scale would help me stay motivated, instead I just don't get on it. Pathetic much?!
I haven't really struggled like this in the past, so while you may be reading this for the eleven-ty millionth time, it is a first for me.
I think part of it - and yes I am making excuses here - is that it is so hot after work. I don't like to go in the morning because it is dark and because I like my sleep. So I'm kind of stuck. I just need to stop making excuses and just do it, like Nike says.
I DO have a project that I will be sharing and that brings me happiness and a sense of accomplishment, but that is short lived. I still feel bad about myself.
I need to focus more on being healthy. This is going to be a struggle as I don't enjoy most vegetables. I am going to continue to eat the stuff I enjoy, only I will do it in moderation instead of all the time like it has been lately. I have also devised a workout schedule/routine with some diversity so I don't get bored and fall off again. I know after the first couple days I will start to feel better about myself and I will be able to continue -- the first couple days are the hardest for me.
How do you stay motivated?
If you don't like vegetables, what do you supplement?